where do i go from here?

whatz didz u say ?

2012-01-21T02:55:00.003+08:00

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIOOOON ; imagine me sing this ;)

teheee~ Assalamualaikum ♥

Well, I know a month has almost pass by and tiba-tiba nak new years resolution la kan,
BIARLAH ! Haha Let me be ~

Honestly my homework macam saiz bukit, tesis is well 0 % done :D and exam dah dekkaaaaat :)
Still , bak kata RANCHO, " All is WELL " * tepuk dada sikit.

Today, was kind of terrible , going back from MELAKA to KL. 3hours dalam bas yg sangat freezing cold dan eeee penuh dgn couples yg tiada segan silu bermesraan -______-
But well Diana & I, somehow we ended up sharing things about feelings and ...... hahah :)
wth ? lupakan.

SO WHAT IS MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION ?

- 10 A+ ofcourse for SPM insyaallah
the rest aku simpan sendiri :)

hmmm, life is electric. MENGEJUTKAN.
Apa-apa lah :)

it was nice to meet you.

2011-12-10T15:19:00.002+08:00

Tell Me Why?

Assalamualaikum :)

See that smile up there, its not fake anymore, tee heee ~
Sorry lost my mind a little there.

Well lately I've been spending time finishing my SEM project.Alhamudulillah I think its over.
Its really tyring actually to do this scientific stuff but its amazingly fun.
It was a great pleasure to meet Abg Zikri , Kak Azi and Kak Affa who help me and susu ♥alot.

My scientific future ?
Honestly, I don't know.Physics is dead fun but my interest is definitely not there and I guess to
know what I want , I have to explore. The same goes to you, yes you pembaca.
Still confuse about your future ? Don't sweat it ~ just go with the flowwww wth ? haha lupakan -____-

Oh Abg Zikri,
He is ah-mazing. What I admire about him the most was that he knew what he wanted, he is passionate in what he is doing and he is having a great time doing it.
When I grow up, I want to be like that ~

Hmmmm oh lately ~
I read about this post of crisis about Malaysia , negara tercinta ...
Well it was more about Islam actually, about Pertubuhan Melayu Murtad & stuff like that
Hadoih :/ What is to become of this world ? I don't get it. Dunia ni dah la dah nak kiamat , and somehow its like we are still numb towards a feeling of being scared or worried about the hereafter.
Seriously , anda yakin masuk syurga ?
and I just don't get why people hate Islam so much.

Hidayah itu milik Allah, but it doesn't mean we have to give up.
To live a life on the true path of Islam is definitely not easy but stay strong my dear , keep on praying.

Guide us to the straight way ;
The way of those on whom You have bestowed Your grace, not the way of those who earned Your anger ,nor of those who went astray .

Al-Fatihah : verse 6 & 7

Prayer is a weapon of the true believers ♥

Be a man ?

2011-12-03T22:12:00.006+08:00

don't be sad, Allah is with us (Surah At Taubah,40)

Asslamualaikum :)

See that smile up there,sorry its fake.

La tahzan,Innaallaha ma'ana.Somehow those words are so comfirting I don't feel like I wanna move to a different dimension and wished its a world where Harry Potter lives ;)

Well actually I do.Haha I mean Hogwarts, Magic, Unicorns, Spells, Snape ?
Fun apa ~ I even wrote about it in class when Miss Miza told us to write an article about " Who would you be, If you are given the chance to be anyone you wanted ? " She said I was one of kind ;) or maybe tak-betul-sangat.

hmmm well,SPM is tahun depan,laaaaame -____-
but still takkan-saya-nak-dapat-telurayam,haha lupakan~ its just like I lost myself a little and Im stuck in this no-work-in-progress motion while org lain dh mcm 'studying' for form5 hadoih :/ I want to cry.I don't get it,wth is wrong with me ? I used to love reading, heck yeah I lived through story books and now I don't even want to touch a book. I feel like I'm trapped in a body not meant to be mine.

Im sorry Allah, I don't count my blessings.

That day bought this jubah , and tadaaaa kena marah from my mom via phone :/

She 's at Mekah now and she was like "Buat apa beli baju mahal, dekat sini belambak jubah with RM 140 you can buy two of em".So ANYONE WANTS TO BUY A MAROON-ISH PURPLE JUBAH ? The price is higly negotiable and it has never been worn.

Contact me at facebook or mana2 lah .

love letters ~

2011-12-02T22:37:00.004+08:00

Life isn't easy so what.

Asslamualaikum.

teee heee~ i like saying that, so i'll do it again , teeee heeeee ~ haha okay moving on :o

Being me .
Who is this me that we speak of ? Kamu dan saya lah.Haha lupakan -_-
Its not easy being me,kan ? Common these typical words don't stray too far from our mouths.

Sometimes, we never want what we have and yet we envy and desire the things that other people possess.We constantly want to look gorgeous like angels teee heee~ but lets face the fact we never would or maybe saya harap saya pandai macam Fatin N~ haha yeah sudahlah.

Hasbunallah, Cukuplah Allah bagi kami ♥

Allah menjadikan kamu cinta kepada keimanan, dan menjadikan (iman) itu indah dalam hatimu,serta menjadikan kamu benci kepada kekafiran, kefasikan, dan kedurhakaan.

(Surah Al-Hujarat : 7)

What more do you want to trade for when you have iman, its priceless.

So say Alhamdulillah :)

I suck.

2011-11-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

Have you ever walked with someone but well you were just two people walking towards the same destination side by side.

Have you ever walked with someone and then that person ditches you for someone else and they did not even realize how it made you feel?

Its always hard being the one misunderstood.Im sorry I dont fit in.

Honestly when I open my mouth,the words expressed are a little unkind.

Forgive me for restricting my own thoughts and perceptions.

Maybe someday I would be brave enough to be as honest as some people are.

okay bye.

mommyyyy

2011-11-01T13:55:00.001+08:00

Happy Bithrday MOM ;D

hehe :)

2011-10-31T10:09:00.003+08:00

exaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam :D

wish and pray for me :)

not so sweet sixteen?

2011-08-02T13:16:00.002+08:00

what are you waiting for ~ take a bite of my heart tonight

Leaving.It is never easy to say goodbye but aren't we lucky to have something so hard to let go.Something worth crying over night because its precious.

I don't want to go back there.I mean it and Im dead serious but if I give up now then all those battles that I fought trough against myself would be an effort wasted.

What more can I say about life ? Its hard.Its easy.Its complicated ?

It is whatever we make it to be.

Sometimes I feel like Im living in two different worlds.I wish I could mash them both together and what a world it would be but I can't.I can't fly either,haha a dream harshly bounded by reality its never going to come true.

Time moves by quickly doesn't it.I can't believe Im going to be sixteen soon.

yes,fyi soon.haha.I hate growing old,well not really old but older.

I wish I had the time to sit around and fantasize about a universe that did not exist.I would still be pleasant by my own imagination.

I don't have that now,that sense to dream beyond boundaries.This world took it away from me and is replaced by logic and fear.What a world we live in.

I dnt like growing up.

2011-06-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

Baby don't stop now,The Maine :)

Here we are again,bidding our goodbyes.

The old me and the new me.Yet,we are still the same people just in different versions as time has taken over and the people that we have met change every detail in the way we talk,the way we dress and the way we smile.

As each day passes by,I see myself grow like watching a tape someone recorded once ago again and again till the night changes to day.Some of the things I did made me roll and laugh like I have never before echoing louder and louder in this empty room I've created but certain fragments of the past caught tears in my eyes.They are tears of regret,tears of remorse,tears of pure heart break and tears of disappointment.

Life as we know it is a learning process and to know what is right we have to know what is wrong.It is as if touching a hot iron for the first time and remembering to never repeat such a mistake.It is printed in the back of our minds just like the way we know how to write,talk and move.

direction,

2011-05-31T23:28:00.002+08:00

I still am searching,searching trough the fogged clouds.
Its hazy out there and I am getting lost.Somehow yesterdays were full of assurance,
and today as I wake up its as if I took a wrong turn to an unfamiliar route and I have no way of turning back.

DREAMS,HOPES,GOAL

where the heck did all of that go ?
Im so confused now.I always wanted to be captain of my ship and cruise along
the deep blue sea against the tides yet when I am given such choice,such power,
I feel like a kid on the first day of school.I don't know what to do.
Im sailing without a compass,without a map,without direction.
I have no idea where I am headed to.Please,show me the way.

sigh *

2011-05-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

I no longer want to be what I used to be.
But sometimes I wished I still had that part retained in me.
I used to be quiet,well I still am.
Life seems easy,wake up,do something,go to sleep and do it over again.
Haha okay no.Well I don't know.
It kind of use to be easy,well actually it wasn't.
Have you ever felt like you just don't belong?
I constantly do.It feels like I don't have a sense of belonging with people.
I don't like being in large crowds either.Its very tyring.Im not a people person.
This is very depressing,goodbye now.

let it go.

2011-04-15T01:04:00.002+08:00

and even if it is the way I feel It does not matter.

I'm tired of being so concerned,feeling so insecure. To compete with mere perfection is highly impossible. Yet still I believe.I believe I believe I believe that I can. I can be all that I want to be,I am who I am.

I have a goal and so i am headed for them.

Life is fear full journey and so shall I overcome them. There are always going to be tears and lonely days blowned away with the wind.Tough times full of worries. and even if it is the way I feel it does not matter.

finally.

2011-03-14T23:12:00.003+08:00

say hello to the good times.
the change in my life no longer irritates me.somehow i could now adapt to the new surroundings which now is some what familiar to me.flashes of old faces runs through my mind from time to time yet i keep it as a reason and motivation for myself to be stronger,to hold on and remain calm as life requires sacrifice.
finally its time for a holiday,yet there are tonnes of homeworks trailing behind.when ever i get excited of exciting activities to do,my mind retreats and remind myself of HOMEWORRKKK.thank you dear teachers for loving me so much -___-

11 March 2011.
I remember that day.
while we were sleeping in the midst of the night,dear Japan lost hope.thousands submerged beneath those mighty waves.Allah is Al-mighty.
I do wonder why.why only must hurricanes,tornadoes and tsunamis be a reminder of death,of 'the end'.why not every single moment in life.why when only something bad happens then we remember Allah.we humans are really ungrateful.

ringring,

2011-02-19T00:43:00.002+08:00

A breath of fresh air.
Everything is different now.From when I wake up till comes the next day.A different routine maybe but a hectic one.I no longer see the same faces I was used to fr 3 years.
Im scared.Change is complicated.Its like trying to jump over this big hole thats in the middle of your way.You want to but there is this fear of falling and if you don't you will never move a step a head but always be left behind.I want so badly to push myself to the fullest but I guess Im the only one holiding myself back.I so need a kick in the s.haha lol.urmmm well got lots of stories to tell abt mrsm TGB but ermm nnti je laa.later :)

eeeep,

2011-02-02T00:00:00.002+08:00

So long Farewell,until we meet agaain .
Goodbyes are never easy.The pain remains even if the sight of the person is gone.I wonder when people say 'Don't forget me',I'm the one leaving.I'll be the one missing classes,parties and outings.Would you actually remember me during those laughter's of yours together? or shall I be the one popping in and out then being remembered.
Dear life,you make me puzzled with questions.I would ask a million things if only you would actually tell me the answer.I would talk to the moon and the stars,so I'll always be accompanied during those lonely nights.I would laugh along with the trees as they dance joyfully with the wind blowing tickling their leaves.Oh to ride with the blue skies that I have been longing for.Somehow these simple words of mine could easily loose my sense of worries.I guess everything just has its own way of working out.
okaaaay,urmm goodbye fr now im alone,downstairs dalam gelap,watched paranormal activity and i dah phobia haha :D

school...cant wait.

2011-01-02T03:34:00.003+08:00

Books on shelves are like souls ready to be awakened.
i never knew books could be express in such a way,but it is true isn't it.somehow the words printed on the pages could bring a different world to life.
Its like an escape route.a ticket to freedom.well i think of it that way.usually when i have a bad day or im just rather bored,i turn to books.its like an adventure just waiting to be discovered.
I could spend hours sitting still yet im hiding behind the bushes or laughing with the characters of the story.a whole new world emerges through those pages and im never left out.
If only school books were like that,a story or maybe an adventure.I wish we had a different perspective in learning things.Sitting behind a desk all day,hearing lectures of old teachers,staring at a book with tiny words,yeah i agree,kill me now.No wonder we lose all those inspirations and dreams.I wish we ourselves get a chance to explore and discover new things and connect them in real life.experiments and games.wouldnt that be something huh?
well reality is what it is but maybe its time for a change.
hmmm yeah,kay,bbye.
see you guys at school though -_____-

hello and goodbye,

2010-12-31T23:39:00.002+08:00

Its the beginning of a new chapter.
goals? spm,haha.well in 2 more years but i have my head set already.i wanna be like my dad.i want to study overseas.maybe in the medicine field or biology.hmmm i dnt knw.right now,it seems so clear to me what my ambitions are but maybe in 2 years time it will change,who knows.all i know is life without goals or ambitions are meaningless.everyone needs a reason to get up the next morning wanting to make a diiference in their lives.eventhough i seem so sure of everything,its hard not to just take a step back and second guess yourself.i keep panting around screaming in my head saying can i do this? or can i be as great as other people are? or will make it through all the tough times? and whats gonna happen?
the only answer i have is,well we can only wait and see.
so yeah we would wait and see,ill tell you all about my life in 10 years,20 maybe?
haha talk to you later than :)

text~

2010-12-28T23:10:00.004+08:00

Catch a falling star and keep it in your pocket save it for a rainy day.
hmmmm.somehow i feel ermm sad.haha wait no,its not that.its just one of those im nt really in th mood kind of days.i went to MidValley today and watched TRON :)
haha best kut.its pretty cooolio~haha.Sam Flynn :) damn!I wished I had a boyfriend like that.Perrggh naik Ducati lg pulak tu haha.Sorry got carried away with my mindblowing fantasy haha ;) Chill la.
hmmmm.im scared actually now,the chances of me actually going to MRSM :O
i want to go but i dont want to!
Like BTW,there is no air panas there to mandi :O
haha i knew that long ago but like stilll,haishh.haha yes i am ridiculous.
hmmmm andddd i think i could handle everything else but like i have to compete with like really2 nerdly smartypants there.p.s. IM SO SCARED.
well okay then.things we would go through to make our dreams come true -___-
i blame myself for being so ambitious~
ttyl guys.

whootswhoots.

2010-12-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

One at a time.
its still surreal.Like a dream.I cant believe it.Finally i am pleased with my results but i wont say a thing of what my dad said to ruin my mood so nvm.I feel like i got over a hurdle.like those ones in the races but im still not far from the starting line.there is still a long way to go.
Anyways,Malaysia won the game :)
ahaha my dad was like it wouldnt be safe to go to indon anymore.
people jerit kat kedai mamak,punya la kuat.
its so cool,semangat 1 Malaysia weyh!

breathe,

2010-12-17T02:41:00.002+08:00

~~Stalking~~ Research
well haha.im researching on fb.its true you can get a lot of information but sometimes its like wow i dont care.facebook somehow sucks life out of people leaving their hours of the day wasted in front of the computer.i somehow regret confirming peoples request.i dont even knw them and the next thing their asking you weird questions and giving you their phone number like wtf.haha excuse me.
anyways,NAT GEO is making my life better.what they expose to the public about the world is just amazing.i remember watching about sharks and other marine life creatures of how just intricate they could be.also a program about the universe consisting of stars,planets and galaxies.its amazing.it took my breath away.
hmmmmm.well lately i watched narnia and it was okay la but the middle part was a bit like haaaaaah mengantuk gila.Prince Caspian actually didnt look so bad.
owh,today my brother came back and said 'haha here is a present for you'.
it was all of his form4 and form5 books -_____-
way to kill the mood of the holiday spirit.
btw,PMR results is coming soon.aaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

heck.

2010-12-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

Freak Out!
Again.Im tired.Im freaking out.Lately its been a tough couple of weeks not saying that its worst than other peoples lives but i keep on crying at night and its so hard to sleep.Im starting to hate being in large crowds and i couldnt give a damn either.I want to blow up or slap someone in the face.haha okay now i want to laugh just picturing slapping someone.so just a warning if im a bitch at the moment forgive me but please dnt ignore me cause i just might slap you.haha kidding well maybe not.haha bbye.

Dallas Green,

2010-12-12T12:10:00.002+08:00

City and Colour,
eeeeeeeeeeeeeep haha.dont u just want to dance listening to the songs.its magical.okay.anyway,focus.urmmm i forgot about what i wanted to blog about.well okay then till i remember.
bbye.

mamma mia,pizza

2010-12-10T23:46:00.002+08:00

COOKING :O
this is my reaction when it comes to cooking.i dont think i have the talent or even the patience.i get all nervous and i forget what ingredients to work with.its like doing a maths test and nerves run up my sleeves and i cant answer the question.thats my definition of cooking.somehow lately the tv seems to be playing the same thing over and over again.so,i decided to watch cooking channels.they dont look that bad i guess but i wish someone would help me out with actually doing it.haha maybe someday.today,we made pizzas for lunch and they were okay i guess as our first try making our own pizza dough.i want to go out laaaa :(

B-E-A-C-H

2010-12-09T01:37:00.002+08:00

Do you hear that too?
the sound of the ocean.waves lapping onto shore.
that cool feeling when the wind blows through your hair.the warm breeze on your skin.feeling sand between your toes.running towards the crushing waves.these are one of the things i couldnt help falling in love with.the beach.take me there :)
im longing for freedom.i thought i was,school came to an end but here i am.bored.trapped in this box i call home.haha in my head that sounded way cooler.i just want to go to the beach.haha lol :D

holiday,

2010-12-06T16:28:00.002+08:00

lifeless.
i feel like a rock by the road side.
everything is moving on and passing by and here i am watching.wacthing as if life is passing through and all i am doing is waving it goodbye.i didnt think that this is the way i'd be spending one of the last holidays.i thought i would at least start on my form four revisions already and maybe buff up my guitar skills.i also dream of going out with my friends but well i guess thats just not happening.hopefully with a few more weeks striving through december,id be out and about,maybe just a brief holiday trip with my family after my brother finishes his spm or maybe out with friends.

city and colour :)

2010-12-03T01:18:00.003+08:00

I miss you :')
im constantly reminded of fond memories at school.times in class or science lab or maybe at the field.i miss every second of it and its over now.to reminisce over things,its painful.your not even sure if you want to cry or smile or maybe laugh out loud even if your sitting alone.im afraid of moving on if i have that oppurtunity but somehow thats just the way life is.like Dory in Finding Nemo said "Just keep swimming,just keep swimming".people should really make like painkillers for this really just unsatisfied feeling.i feel restless.

squishy.

2010-12-02T01:10:00.002+08:00

new found hobby,
during those waiting moments at dozens of shopping malls at Aus,
id be at the perfume counter playing with those squirt bottles.
haha ill be squishy squasy smelling like Dior,Chanel,LeeCooper,
or Marc Jacobs all at ones.
and id be taking like samples and then spraying perfume on those
papers they give you.i have like tonnes of em.
now my bag smells great,and so does my room.

anyways,
fb is getting like creepy and just like 'aha yeah''idont care'
random people add you and they go like
"boleh kenal" and what sht la kan,its like dah add ckp je
la hello im bla bla bla dont sound like a ........................
ermm well whatever it sounds like kan.
hmmmmm okay then byebye .

yeah now this is a whatever.

2010-12-01T15:04:00.002+08:00

Lifestyyyyless of the teenaaggers.

we eat sleep watch tv facebook and sleep.

and the next day goes

eat sleep watch tv facebook andd sleep.

our life for a week,two weeks,three? a month.

yet, we complain and nag when it comes to going to school.

guys,jom keluar :)

pancakes,

2010-11-30T22:32:00.005+08:00

hopes.
its better to not have them but if
you dont,it feels like theres no drive.
theres no point of anything.
constantly i cant help myself.
i hope too much for everything.
its not like i deserve to get so much.
but i wish things would go my way.
i hope fr 8A's fr PMR.
i hope getting in MRSM.
i hope Malaysia would be more
greener and environmental friendly.
i hope for an acoustic guitar.
i hope i can go Australia again.
i hope i can go out with my friends.
i hope 3Jujur would last forever.
well like thats gonna happen -_-

Btw,i just realize i use the word 'haha' way too often.so ignore that.

i wonder why i get so addicted to city and colour-the girl.
i play it over and over and over.terlebih addict.

ill follow you into the dark.

2010-11-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

time for goodbyes.people keep leaving.

somehow i wish there was a moment of

solidarity where everything stays.

everything is still and constant.

so i wont feel so alone and abandoned.

after ten exciting days,

im finally coming home.

i'd probably miss the weather and the

really friendly and polite people,

and the scenery,and the shopping places-_-

and my nephews,and lotsss moree.

well byebye.

whatever la.

2010-11-20T19:13:00.002+08:00

im sitting calm,

looking through the window.

far a head the horizons of

the deep blue sky,decorated

with a constellation of stars.

bright ones,dim ones and others.

somehow the world is gone.

there is only me and my thoughts.

suddenly i open my eyes and they

are all gone.the stars

but i could see the sun.

and now here i am in Aus :)

goodday mate :)

haha,people here

they are so so friendly.

somehow staying here seems awesome.

and the 'mamat hot's,heeeeeee.

anyways,

dear friends jangan kecik hati

if i dnt get u guys souvenirs cause

well i dnt really have money to

spend.i have some money but just

maybe not enough fr everyone,kay?

the first day here,

was like hectic.9hours in the plane,

we land,we eat and then shooooop!

my aunts go crazy fr these kind of things.

makcik2 shopping kalah budak2 zaman skrg.

you give love a bad name,

2010-11-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

shot through the heart
and your to blame,
heck i love that song :D

anyways,
Classs Partaaay.
sungguh tidak best.
well some parts were really
awesome and some were like
what the tooooot,tooot you,
toooooot this place and
im never going to SunwayPiramid
ever again.

hmmm went shopping there,
i really wish i'd find a hat
but it wasnt my luck.
i really hope after i get back
frm Aus that there would be a
Part II,and we should seriously
go shoppping!
and and make it at OU laaa.
and and lets reallly eat together.
and and do something funnn together.
and and i'd miss all of you :(
and and byebye!

i bid farewell.

2010-11-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

tick-tock,tick-tock.
time creeps in a petty pace leaving
me behind.
moving fast without me being in
my conscious state of mind.
i wept and wept in regret.
yet there is no use as the past
has left.

how could it be?
its November.Sweet November.
I'm not ready for goodbyes but
who ever is.its better this way.
everything leaving me without
my acknowledgement.
goodbye sweet old memories,
the ones id be longing for
in many years to come.
goodbye fifteen,
the moment i grew up and begin
dreaming.
goodbye sweet love,
a risk i regret not taking.
goodbye,goodbye,goodbye.

starrrr,

2010-11-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

something new everyday.
anger is something we can't fight
but something we can control.
it seems to be a second emotion
behind our true feelings which
is hidden deep beneath our realization.

anyways,
StarTrek :)
pretty awesome buttt maybe
StarWars is kinda better?
haha yeah im such a dorrrkk.

hmmmmm so.
reach fr th stars,maybe
you'd catch one.

hey,hey,hey

2010-11-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

why hello there.

lately i dnt use blogger anymore
since i have this notebook which
i just blurb about everything in
it.the funny thing is i bring it
everywhere i go and the stuff in
there,should never ever be shown
to anyone.

anyways,
my legs still hurt like crazy
and it takes me a whole minute
to go upstairs.
i cant even run and when i
have to pray,wow lets not even
go there.Excruciating pain.

hmmm its funny how holidays get
really boring.well no its nt funny.
its sooo borrring.

urmmmm.welll cupcakes :)

urmmmm,okay.

bye?

today?

2010-11-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

hmmm,today.
today i let out laughter.
today i shared laughter.
today i cried.
today i shared my tears.
today i had a crush.
today i realize i had great friends.

Self-Excellence Camp.
Ahmmaazzzinngggggg,haha.
Fun like crazy,Pain like hell.
I cried cause it hurts when my
teammates were willing to deal
with th punishment when they didn't
have to.They supported me.I love them.
So,urmmm welll yeah.

It sucks that I might nt get to go
to Aidil's house to make cupcakes :(

urm byebye.

Halloweeenies,

2010-10-31T21:23:00.003+08:00

Horrorfest !

Enjoying it much ?
Well I am.
Like seriously.
Alot of channels are just showing
movies and series of haunting moments.
Heck,I love it.
The rush and chills when theres
a suspension.
Even though it gets hard fr me to
sleep :/

Anyways,
im watching a whole day marathon
of Harper's Island on FOX HD
and its so addictive.
Butt,its so slow and every minute
its like murder after murder.
Freaking cooool but kinda boring.

Cooookking,
tmrw ada competition kut,
butt i dnt even knw how to cook
so haha whatevs,thumbs up all
the way :)

It's All About You

2010-10-30T12:53:00.000+08:00

Tech-deck ;)

2010-10-28T22:48:00.004+08:00

eco-music.
it sounds bizarre.
honestly its kinda stpd.

It was all quiet today.
Rather loneliness we all felt
but Ali and I ended up helping
fr th BP MyScience thing.So,
It was pretty awesome.
Sevu and his GAGA acts,totally
one of a kind.
Then we sat like in a group
all singing to the tune of Teenage
Dream.Semua summmmbanng.
I mean like its Katy Perry.
That totally made my day :)

2010-10-27T21:15:00.002+08:00

I have not been to schl fr th past 3 days
and I dnt knw if I should go tmrw or
just skip th whole week entirely.
At home I linger around waiting for
time to past by.
Seriously,I need to get out.

2010-10-26T14:17:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.

hello.

its beeen a while.

well okay byebye :)

but you'll always believe,

2010-10-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

the world is a horrid place,
covered will all the good things,
so they say.
people,mainly.
the things they would do
to each other.hostile beasts.

yet,there is always hope.
deep in ones core.
A hope where light shines upon
and live creates a miracle.

the ceramah today,
totally eye opening.
Always be aware,be bold,
be brave,be smart
and pray.

haish,

2010-10-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

Its 18 October and this is my 180th post.
and Its Meors Bday today.

Time and tide waits fr no man.
I cant believe in two more years
Im ending high school.
It feels like a big leap towards
adulthood.
Its time to drop those kiddy play-kit
and time to chase those big dreams.

Anyways,
going to schl today was totally
worth it.
I can't believe all 3Js were forced to
recite a sajak.
Its stupid.Well not really but why us.
Vichas hand gestures were just inappropriate.
ChengYik was seriously funny when he sang.
Imran was just crazy?

Form4!
eeeeeep Pure Science.
The guy tht gave a crmh abt nextyear
totally freaked me out.
Im thinking like
"Can I do it??" / "Is this right fr me?"
total fun killer.

Ali and MIMI and Aidil,
they are pestering me to do a FB.
It takes time,haha.
Its so uncool when everyone has one.
BUT there are perks like knwing
whats going on and getting close
to longlost people.
so I'd probably make one.
SO TUNGGU LA!

Ou,

2010-10-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

Ghost Stories Marathon,

The Child's Eye.
that movie made me paranoid.
Like Serious Sht Man.Haha.
I've never shout and scream like
crazy in a cinema.Well,it was not
that scary but the sound effects
and very unexpecting incidents made
us shiver.
I was like covering my eyes but looking
trough my fingers to see what happens.
Haha i kept screaming and jumping,
Ali jerit gila2.Haha.Mimi beside me
pun dah mcm tak nak tengok!
Icha was laughing.Haha some scenes
were kinda hilarious.

Back to The Paranoid,

we were like in the dressing room,
saja taking pictures.
Then there was one picture when
Aidil said"rambut sapa tu?"
We started screaming.Then well
it was just a reflection of mine.
Then kdg2 Aidil would go kejap2 like
she was talking to her self and
Mimi also,scary like crazy.
Lesson of the day,
No more ghost movies in the cinemas.

CWGames,

2010-10-14T21:31:00.002+08:00

Maher Zain , he is amazing.

Anyways,
Commonwealth Games!
so,just give me this moment to
be a normal teenager.
The Athletes are so freaking HOT.
Like drop dead gorgeous.
Okay,hmmmmmmm
today didn't go to school,
didn't have a reason either to go
so I went to renew my passport.
Two freaking hours nak tunggu.
It was like a long-term winter in the
air-cond room.My dad left me and I
was so alone,haha.
So we watched CWG with th officers that
worked there.It was like a 1Malaysia
kind of moment when everyone came to
a halt watching Tan&Koo playing against
England.There were like seriously hilarious
moments tickling you till you drop
off the chair.

letsbefriendly,

2010-10-13T21:09:00.003+08:00

Eco friendly please,

I've watched numerous episodes
of shows regarding animals on
Nat Geo&Animal Planet.
In HD it looks wickedly cool.
Anyway,I was devastated when they
kept on mentioning about how most
of the exotic animals started to
disappear and are threatened to
be extinct.
Btw,sharks are really friendly.
They seriously are.Well not all
but I've watched this man dive into
the sea with tiger sharks like
20 of them.It was so AWESOME!
And this other man he fed the sharks
and played with the sharks like
they were little kittens.

Knowledge is magic,

2010-10-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

FREEDOM,baby.

Truthbetold,
I'm freaking out.
Haha,just the thought of getting
the results its like tuuuuuuuut.
Luckily,maths tadi was kinda easy.
I remember doodling and decorating
the extra paper with funny quotes which
eventually I decided to rub off since
people might think I'm a loony if they
know it was my paper.
But KHB.Ermmm main hentam la kut.

The sky today looked amazing.
It always is.The light blue sky
had dark shaded clouds and pinkish-orange
streaks neatly arranged in a row.
Perfection.I've always wanted to paint
the sky,to paint it like a picture.

Well,bybye.

honeyiamterrified,

2010-10-08T21:56:00.003+08:00

aaaaaaaaaah,PMR!

a little too late for that.
2 more papers and we are freeeee till next year.
i hope add-maths won't kill me.

Seriously,
i feel so terrified.
I honestly suck at BM&AGM&SCIENCE!
everyone said like bm and agm
was easy but it feels like i screwed
those freaking papers.
SCIENCE lagi la,
nak menangis baca soalan tu.
even though like yeah its just PMR,
but exactly.
You get one chance,one opportunity.
I might even screw my chance of
being accepted in MRSM.

well,bye .

let it be,

2010-09-23T22:07:00.003+08:00

Smiles :)

Whoa.One more weeeek.
yay.haha.Get it over with.
I am very tired of feeling
all the anxiety and frustration.

Anyways,
I have to blog this.
Its the latest 411 in schl.
usogedikssss.blogspot.com yeah.
Seriously,Farah Diana?
Bdh,ke apa.She is innocent.
I knew her since form1 and no
way.She has never open that
blog.and like tgkla Facebook dia,
sebulan sekali je bukak.

FAKE!who knew!
under all that friendliness,
warmth and prettiness,there is
that very 'fine' and 'rare'
quality. So much fr friends.
Unfortunately,
sometimes there is no justice.
there is always two sides of a story,
but only one is heard.
why?cause we are so blind.
however,right or not,
let the Al-Mighty judge and if you
know what is right then why should
you give a damn abt stpd ~~btchs~~.

Anyways,
DntGiveup!GdLckFrYrExams!

it gets real,

2010-09-19T16:23:00.002+08:00

Smiles :)

Going down the familiar roads
trough the streets of Kuching,
I miss everything.
The people,the places,fooood,
everything.
Goodbyes were bid too soon.
Raya is soon to be done with.
I guess this is the only year
that my friends and I did not
have our annual rumah terbuka.
I hope we could after PMR.

Truth Be Told,
I have not really had a serious
study session since the holiday
started.This feels so shittty!

I guess it is time for us
candidates to put our thinking caps
on and get down to business.

Happy studying :)

2010-09-04T16:30:00.001+08:00

Balik Kampung :)
Selamat Hari Raya,dudes!

hello,

2010-09-01T23:12:00.002+08:00

Don't be afraid to dream.

Whoa.One more week till raya.
A month till PMR.
then,Holidaaaaaaaay.

Dear Sara,
seriously its just not normal for
you to be jealous of me.
I'm like a L fr looser.haha -_-
Maybe my staright A's fr trials
is just rezeki la kan.
Hopefully its the same fr PMR.
Most of all dnt give up.
Im sure you will do great :)

urmm,
im nt going to schl tmrw.
mom wants to go shopping.
i have to follow.haha.
i kinda dnt want to go but i
do want to go at the same time.
so whatevs.

well,bye.

2010-08-31T23:38:00.005+08:00

MERDEKA!

Merdeka!?!

yay!My parents tak ada semangat

langsung -_-

so much fr celebrating.

my brother lg la lagu patriotik

pun nyanyi main belasah je.

I could totally remember when I

was like in primary school,I remembered

every single patriotic song.

I dnt knw why.I loved celebrating

this very special event.

Now,it seems like everyone grew up

and forgot how awesome 31st August is.

Anyways,

yay :) this Saturday balik Kuching:)

owh how i miss the fireworks.

late nights drinking fizzydrinks,

eating late night snacks,watching

old raya stories,duit rayaaaaaa :P

RAYA:) how unfortunate that ramadhan

has to go.

2010-08-29T14:29:00.002+08:00

hey,
Raya :)
haha belum lagi but soon.

Anyways,
last night i went to like a
majlis doa selamat and buka puasa
at one of my neighbours house.
Besar gila.4 tingkat.
When i came it was like
dingdong,ada lif kat dalam.
i honestly knew nobody except
my neighbours infront of my house.
hot guys,population none.haha.

owh,
I've watched Band of Brothers
for the second time.
sedih gila,i could not stop crying.
eventhough it was a happy ending
when the war was over but after
the death of like their buddies
its just so sad.
I remember watching the first episode
and they were in training and there
was David Schwimmer as the trainer
and he was cruel.Then there were times
when they kenakan him.Hilarious.Then
they started combat.Scary sht man.
After years of war then finally
happy ending.its just crazy.
i wonder do they actually get to
keep their hair do's cause they
were total hunks.
i mean like in real life most
soldiers like tak ada rambut .

well,bye.

hey,

2010-08-27T23:34:00.002+08:00

little butterflies,
my trials went well buttt
well what matters is the real exam
so the climb isn't over yet.

Lately,
almost everyone has gone into
a stress zone since October is
just around the corner.
somehow i feel helpless and not
in control.

it still sucks the fact that
my brother is getting an ipod.
entahla.im such a looooooserrr.
whatevs.nothing changes.

if only all the stars in the sky
could listen to my laments and
make me feel better when im in need.

owh haha,
ingat tak that guy yg selalu kacau org
when i was like walking back,
that day he was at that new bus stop
and while i was walking,infront of like
all of his friends he like pointed at
me,then semua org pandang :/
masalah betul -_-
then i made like a weird face then
semua kawan dia gelak.haish.

k,byebye.

haish,

2010-08-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hey!

I am still urmmm well i dnt knw.
The fact that my brother is
still getting an ipod makes me
feel sad and unwanted.
Sometimes its as if I dnt need
to ask cause I knw they prefer
him more than me.
Well whatevs la.
It has always been this way.
I dnt knw why am I making such a
big deal over it.

Anyways,
today was so funny.
Everyone made my day.
or entah knp la i was in an
okay mood.

Well,byebye.

nevergoodenough,

2010-08-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

Yes,totally bad paint day.
my tudung is like splatsplatsplat
yellow and yellow everywhere.
haish,dah la dia tak nak hilang:(

Anyways,
helllooooo blogggerrrr.
dah lamaaaa tak bukak.
trials,lately.thats what evryone
else blog says.
so far there is no confirmation
of our marks but i think i already
got 2 A's,yay!
Today,had seni.
haha and after the seni2
we were like sitting in a circle
and everyone was like playing a really2
stupid childish game.
haha.my lame-os and i.
we are such LAME-OS.haha i love them.
we could make everythng sound funnnny.

THE BIG news,
my adik "kesayangan" dpt second in
his class,which btw is nt a vergoodone.
causehehadlike B's and C's!
AND MOST OF ALLLLLLL,MY MOTHER
NAK BAGI DIA IPOD.
mana tak sakit hati dowh.
when i was his age getting anything was
beyond impossible.
Myolderbrother and I we had it tough.
nothing was easy.
and mamat tu dpt IPOD.
what is to be come of the world.
please tell me.

owh tadikan,
after terawih we like lalu this jalan
gelap.there was like guys2 yg main gitar
tgh2 hutan.scary kut.lain mcm je tengok.

k,byebye.

hey.

2010-08-13T05:47:00.002+08:00

yo.
haha pelik kan this year
puasa tak rasa penat at all.

Anyways,
pagi tadi there was like a cockroach
and haha i spend the morning
on the couch shouting
"Dad,i lost it!"
haha then it came back and i hit it
like 3 times then byebye.

Trials!
im scared and ready?

well okay then,
byebye.

2010-08-11T05:51:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT BERPUASA

getingoverit,

2010-08-09T21:39:00.002+08:00

hello,hello.

ICHA'S BACK :)

Anyways,
Aini & Amira totally made my day,
they made Ali&I laugh our buts off
and other people were like geleng2
looking at us.
They ajar me benda lucah kut.
Entah apa ke benda.
Then the guys pun sama.
Semua dah corrupted.

urhh,
jogathon best but boring?

eeeeeep,trials :P
well ok then,
byebye.

limabelas,

2010-08-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

hey,
15 club,whoots whoots.
haha i've completely lost it.

thanks Aidil,Mimi,Ain,Ali,Fana,
Aini & Akmar + those ppl that
made my day :)
i'll remember the chocolate cakes,
MIMI'S PIZZA :P and Aidil oreocupcks.
the secret in the circle will remain
safe.and sorry to AIDIL and MIMI cause
i think both sides salah faham at each
other,so we're okay right?
Anyways,senior tak guna kacau org
and buat sakit hati je.

urh,Sara its okay :)

urmmm,tau tak i nearly cried in class.
yeah,why on earth i dnt knw why but
i tahan je.luckily no one saw.
if they did,semua ingt i gila ke apa.

owh haha masa Agama kelakar,
that cikgu.urhhh tak suka!
i can't listen to what he is saying.
and he makes jokes and gelak sorang2-_-

well,byebye.

urgh,

2010-08-04T23:26:00.005+08:00

hello,hello.
its been a while.

hmmm,today ada cerramah,
at first someone said it was
fr BM,like mengantuk!
but it wasn't it was like
this cermh thing frm MrEddieLim,
a very funny dude,prettty cool.
He was a damn good motivator.
He reminded me why this year i
only had one goal and i so badly
want to achieve it.

Anyways,
masa Maths PnWong scolded us a little,
well everyone was so noisy.
Then,she was like,you knw i ask
PnInderjit which class she hated the
most and she said 3J.
To be honest none of us were surprised.
Then ChengYik said"Teacher,why dnt u
ask us,which teacher we hate the most?"
haish -_-
but seriously none of us has a
heart in us to say YAY Inderjit.
You knw she yelled at me and Ali,
cause well we paint tak guna air -_-
like ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
whatever lah.
if i ever take ARTS,well yeah
i nak pindah.
P.S she informed us dgn segala hormatnya
budak-budak 3J tak ada bakat.
yes,we get it -______-

owh my birthday is tmrw.
im old.haha 15 :)

2010-07-31T12:39:00.002+08:00

hey,
aaaaaaaaaarh trials :)
haha i am ready and nt ready.

everyone is like going to th scoreA
thing tmrw and my mom was like
"Buat apa nak pergi.If u thnk it
helps in ur preparation then hancur
la ur PMR.U shld have been ready
wth everythng since form1.
If now baru nak tau what is what
then might as well fail ur exam."

Anyways,
its my lttl brthr's bday tmrw
and mine is like soon la.
yay,im joining th fifteen club.
haha.i feel old.

today,
my dad baru je pasang th HD thng
on astro.It sucks -_-
bwleeeeeek :p

haha,
i read Sara's blog on how teachers
spread rumours lg teruk than students
yeah its true.
haha 3J is like knwn as the perverted clss.
I rmmbr PnFaridah was like awk tau kan
wayar elektrik dia tegang n kendur.
Well,faham2 je lah.
The boys semua buat muka lain mcm.
Then,Pn Effa the next day said
"eh,class kamu eh yg tanya psl
wayar elektrik tu eh,kendur2
apa entah".
Teruk gila.
PnJarah pun ckp that day,
ni ada yg dirtyminded.

whoops,

2010-07-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

hello there.

back to square one.

something and nothing.

Haaaah good old times,

dn't they make you want to

laugh and cry at the same time.

I remember like awal this year,

masa sivik Ali&I would be laughing

like crazy cause PnNoriah is

just freaking hilarious when she

talks.

My mom went to Jakarta today,

if only this year i didnt have PMR

it would have been a holiday fr me too.

haha,

mamat tu ada lagi.

that guy yg selalu menyapa when ever

i walk past by him after schl.

I remember like alot of his craziness,

there was the time he was like Lalalala

and then hiding behind the bigrecycle

thing to scare me -_-

the time he was playing a badminton

racket like a guitar,

asking me stpd confusing questions

and today he lowered the crazy.

he was like "Hi,Im B-boy something"
i was too disturbed to listen.
urh,yeah that mamat is one of those

hip hop dudes in schl yg selalu

buat break dance on big occasions.
whatevs.

byebye.

cccheckitout,

2010-07-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

hello,hello.
BUKIT GASING was fun :)
i hope teacher would held a field
trip after PMR and it would be
like just us.3J's haha and others.
Semua vain gila kut,
cikgu suruh ambik gambar flora&fauna
but everyone was like cepat,cepat!
masuk,say cheeese :p

Speaking of Cheese,
a slurpee wth cheese flavour,
gaaaaags.who wants to drink
something that taste like cheese.

guitarclass was okay,i guess.
no major screw ups eventhough i
was so tired.
Syedthetallguitarplayer was nt
around.i haven't see him in a while.

Ed-Board thing,
i dnt think i would join.
my parents made a confirmation
that i'll be moving next year.
so well yeah.

k,byebye.

outoftheblue,

2010-07-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

hello.
time heals all wounds,right?
well how long does it take?
im tired of this same old feeling.

Aidil suka Praveen,eh?
haha takdelah main-main je.
we were like saying stupid things
tadi after the edboard meeting.
im nt really sure i want to join
cause if la kan i dpt jadi designer
then if dpt masuk asrama,haaarrh.
but what if i tak pindah and decide
to quit now.
i dnt knw.i cant make up my mind.

heeee,
puasa today,
my tummy hurtss like crazy petang
tadi.everytime someone mentioned
food,i was like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i bukak puasa makan potato chips,
chocolate wafer & fruity yogurt drink.
healthy gila,haha.
i reached my house frm KJ like
at 9pm,and finally dpt makan.
Mom made steak,potatosalad&macandcheese.
seeeedaaaap.cool gila kalau ada icecream
and guess what,tak ada pun -_-
haha i feel great to say my cough
has reduced but my temperature mcm
Pppppanas gila.Whatonearthiswrongwthme?

owh nt to forget,
we had a robot building competition
tadi.our robot is so cute!
well its nt small la but so cute.
and it worked!
but tadi kecoh gila,
benda hilangla,
takda pen la,apa kejadah,
then marah2 each other la :/
hurrrh anak PIBG tu haha ;P

i need to get over somethings
and seriously focus on PMR
then i want to study at Lngkwi
and i dnt have to deal wth
stupid things anymore.

well byebye.

nt in my vocabulary,

2010-07-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

hello,hello

apologies are meant to be honest
and sincere.
Don't know how to do it,then just
shutup.

owh haha,
tadi kelakar.
i was like walking towards my bag.
Ali and I just finished our little
gardening,then tiba2 ada pulak org
cakap "HEY".
Then he said again "Hey"
aaand I tak perasan la then it was
actually Syamil form1 tu.haha.
sumpah terkejut.
So I was like "owh Hi :)"
I could still remember hari tu
Ali,Aidil & I were like haha
eeeeeee tgk budak tu comel nya.
Then there was this time when they
were stalking him,ish ish ish :P
'They' refers to them nt me.

ED-Board is like tmrw and I dnt
really knw if I want to join.
What im afraid is also that I
might dapat but then decide to
masuk Asrama next year.
Well I actually do want to go to
Asrama.I wanna get out of this
daily circle I have and try out
something else.See more of the
world.Meet new people.
Not just muka budak KelanaJaya je.
But part of me is stuck on SP
because form1 until now is just
a crazy ride and I love every
moment of it.
Somehow,maybe its better to
stop living in the past.
Things are getting kinda boring
and Im pretty much tired of
some people.

Anyway,
there is still that 2020,
12am meet and the 2014 world cup
that we want to see at kedaimamak
together.

heee byebye :)

explode,

2010-07-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

hey,
is it possible to be happy
and sad at the same time?

today,
was kinda fun.Pandu Puteri was
like usual boring but kinda fun.
we had like this hangman thing
and i started to play with urm
with like strands of paper under
a table then i lipat2 until it
looks like a moustache and then
i said "Aidil,misai la.haha"
then i made like more and then we
started to be like high and play
with our fake moustache.
then ada pulak joke buat suara mcm
laki and saying hey,awek cun.nak
nombor boleh,haha.
then ada pulak mamat mana balas.
haha,it was hilariously funny and
if this is nt to you,i dnt care.
we had the time of our lives.

i need a break,
my head is full of crap :O
i think abt everythg too much
im going crazy now.
i dnt even have much to worry abt
but theres this thing abt a guy
and BPMyscience which i want to do
but i feel so lazy and suddenly im
starting to hate people and trials
pun dah dekat and PMR lagi la.
its nt like these things are like a
world crisis or something but
im giving a damn way too much than
i should :/

urggh,byebye.

ishouldbestudying,

2010-07-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

hello,hello.

i have to express my hate or
maybe just dissatisfaction
towards this person cause she is
like totally pretty & very smart
buttt damn,i hate your attitude.
It is so bitchy gila gila gila.
even Mimi said so to me,cause
i was like thinking of it in my head
and i thought i was the only one
who taught of it,then Mimi said
the same thing and i bet she wasn't the
only one.

Anyways,
this year im nt active at all in sports.
well,its nt like i ever was fr the past
2 years but at least i was much better.
today,ada netball and stuff,i didnt
join this year and im sure tahan is
way way good but i dnt really like
those ppl yg selalu main netball to be
honest.they just give this very urmm
uncomfortable vibe...

owh well byebye.

Jellyfish,

2010-07-18T15:16:00.003+08:00

owh hello.
i feel depressed and happy.
weird.this is pathetic.moaning.
Anyway,
the lawatan was kinda fun.
i wish all my girls was there.
Planeterium was funnnyy nah it was
boring & amazing at the same time.
the Anti-Gravity room was just
crazy with litlle kindergartens.
the best part was definitely the
space theatre,we watch like a
movie abt flies going to space with
neilarmstrong,it kinda look 3D.
i like the view of the stars and
like the whole universe thingy
it looked surreal and spacey like
haha well it was fun.
AQUARIA,was aquaria fishy like.
yeah,it was fun cause i lepak
with the dudes.
and a big thanks to Adam&Aini fr
belanja-ing me to buy that cute
turtle plushee and to the ppl
yg bagi i potong line.

byebye.

ozil.haha,

2010-07-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

owh hello,
urrrghhh sht happens :(
all my songs on limewire went
totally missing like *poof* hilang.
kesian my brother he failed in some
subjects cause he wanted to help
other students in other classes.
out of a sudden,well nt really there
is this reason that makes me just
confuse and kinda want to cry again.
geeee,i suck.

sambutan IsrakMikraj was
well embarrassing cause there were
more girls than guys,like what happen
to them?
the Ustz gave like a pretty cool speech
but like he was talking so fast,i got
kinda tired of trying to digest all
his words,i ended up like daydreaming.
Aini was a no show,i wonder why.
I hope she comes fr the lwtn tmrw
eventhough i have no semangat to go :/
maybe i should just bring my card
jogathon as a my only mission.

well let bygones be bygones.
byebye.

weareboring,

2010-07-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

ooowak ooowak,whoot whooots -___-
Ali and I dah completely gila hari ni.
i hate having fevers,urrrgggh ):

Anyways,
Mimi's Bday is TMRW !
what should i get fr her?

Can you believe Aidil masuk bolakeranjang.
Dasyatnya...I want to go and see her play
buttt ada stalker yg masa kem tu haha
only my girls and i would understand this.
so,entahlah nak pergi ke takk?

well byebye.

tellmewhy,

2010-07-09T22:13:00.004+08:00

hey,what up.
i feel d-e-p-r-e-s-s-e-d.
everything seems to just fall apart.
its just so frustrating when
everything is just going wth th flow,
just fine and all then crap just fall
all over the place and ruin everything.
it makes me so maddd.
i cried like on thursday right after
balik frm pingpong,which i dnt even knw
why and then at home today i just suddenly
went in my room and cry my heart out.

grreaat,
tmrw is harianugerahcmrlg,
and fake smiling is wht i do best.
i dnt even wnt to go now.
haaaaaaaaarhahahahaha.wtfish.

guitarclassss,
is tmrw and takbuatapalagi.
mmg kena marah lagi :(

NIE,
we did it like today.
i think Ali gt scolding when
she passed it up tadi.
we finish it in like 4 hours kut.
its nt that bad i guess,imagine
what we could have done in 3months.

harh,iwnttocrysomemore.
whatevs,byebye.

AMF,

2010-07-06T22:25:00.002+08:00

oh hello there.
i feel depressed today.
this whole week i feel like i want
to shut myself in my room and not
go to schl and do whatever i want
until i feel okay,well but i can't.
life's gotta move on.

haha masa BM,
pnThana tak dtg,i was kinda hoping
she came,cause theres this lisan thing
which i haven't practice yet and its
like tmrw and i feel screwed.
then,we ended up in bilik seni with
who else but PNInderjit.
we,urmm are nt really fond of her.
Those guys made my day when they
were playing L-A-I-L-A well it
was actually Bingo.Terkejut gila
like i thought they were calling me
then Zakwan showed like this tiny
piece of paper wth my name on it
and numbers in squares like the
way you play bingola.

Hmmm,
Nurin my little junior gave me a
hug today,well usually it would be
awkward if someone came up to me and
hugged me but shes like one of the
nicest junior ever.
Well a hug was what i kinda needed.

oh well,byebye.

justme,

2010-07-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

well hello there,
damn i am exhausted.
of what?entahlah nt life ofcourse.
maybe just tired of having such a
boring life cycle.

Anyways,
went to KLCC today,
my parents wanted to go to a
house expidition or something and it
was fr like 16 and above so my brother
and I went to watch A-Team.
Cool gila.BradleyCooper hot kut.
haha but i like Murdock.
he is so whaack and crazy.

well byebye.

owhreally,

2010-07-04T01:48:00.002+08:00

oh well,hello.
lets talk worldcup.
whootwhoot.GERMANY menang :)
haha kesian kut arg,i kinda wish
they had like atleast satu gol.
its so cool right,football
brings people together.

Anyways,
a mmnt ago i felt so emo.
i wonder why.im so mellow.
im such a sosial.thats wht wrdh
calls me because i suck at socializing.
i mean like i just dnt wnt to go
and say hi and pretend to be interested in
asking questions to someone.
im nt arrogant and proud or anything but
just like i kinda mind my own business.
i feel like MrDarcy.Frm the novel
PRIDE & PREJUDICE which im kinda reading
now just fr the fun of it.
im nt sombong just quiet and full of my own thoughts.

GuitarClass,
was suckish.saw Syedthetallguitarplayingdude.
i find him less attractive than he use to be.
haha im joking la.but i just really
dnt wnt to care abt guys right now.
its a big waste of my time & tears.

byebye.

whenyour15,

2010-07-02T21:35:00.002+08:00

hello,hello.
hmmm on the days i could open blogger
i have absolutely nothing to say but
other days i could just shout out words
in my head expressing how i really feel.
this is so pathetic.

Anyways,
masa balik tu,weird gila.
remember "thatguy" i dnt wnt
to give him a name nor knw his name.
haha i dnt get it.mix signals gila.
that they he was like
"ehsan,eh,ehsan eh"
like whaaaaaat thats what i said.
then today he was hiding behind the
big yellow recycle box thing
and when i jln he was like
"chaaaaaak,blablablabla"
in a very girly voice which just
makes me super curios.
like apa mamat ni nak.

Tahan,
go tahan,haha yelah sangat.
tahan takde semangat langsung.
Anis & I were like playing
with bola jaring,keranjang&baling tadi.
then buat poco-poco dgn Husna.
it was kinda fun actually.

well byebye.

whatup,

2010-07-01T23:05:00.002+08:00

hello,hello.

i totally forgot what i wanted to blog about.
today was like super emo gila.
everyone just wanted to sleeep.
C-H-A-O-S

owh haha kelakar,
i was walking back and this dude
who has been disturbing me
keeps up wth his crazyness,idntevenknwwhthewants.
if its suppose to be a pick up line,
well its so lame and just weird.
haha...

ok then byebye.

youpunchmyheart,

2010-06-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

this is hard.just when everything seems fine
and moving with the flow.
something has to come up and ruin evrything.
have you ever felt sad and angry at the same time?
well,i guess when one of your bestfrends lie
with a straight face infront of you with
no hint or a glimpse of guilt in their face,it
hurts so bad.
it wasn't about what that person lied about
but why whould you lie?
like what,we're not good enough fr you
to share anything.so much fr being buds,yo.
Anyways,there is always two sides of a story
so we'll see where this shit goes.

KEM!
urmm best la jugak but KPA last year was the best.
The Facy best gila kut,sayaaang.Not in that kind of way.
But I hate it when they tried to prank me,
sumpah tahan nangis but then when sarjan said
"Hey,apa tersengih2",honestly nak gelak gila2 but tahan sajalah gelak nanti,haha.
but kesian Ali and Amoi they both cried.
I like the survivor cooking eventhough our fire
padam 3 times but AbgJin was a sport and helped us.
Mafia Game was actually kinda boring
but i was like the first bacth of the mafias so it was fun fr me.
There were certain incidents that were definitely
unforgetable but if u wanna knw ask me in person la.
I totally miss POCO-POCO wth AbgWan in the mornings
and sweeet push-ups and rolling on th ground.
BUT THE TOILET SUCKS LIKE CRAZY.
but i love the sungai.sumpah best.

hhaahaa,i might kinda like "you"....
haha takdelah main2 je.
but that guy taadi was kindaa cute.haha.

well byebye then.

cantreadmy,

2010-06-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

can i get whoot,whoot?
haha kem is tomorrooowww.
eeeeep can't wait.we all can't wait.
heeee yay ain is going.we are all going.
waterfaaaaallll,eeeep i can't wait.

anyways,
haha imran said "bullpooppy".
i think that is what he said.
its funny right.

i seriously hope italy losses.
they are meaaaan players.
one of them like sepak the goalkeeper or something
while he was getting the ball in the net.
gilaaa ke apaaa.

youandiboth,

2010-06-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

heeeeeee,because of the crazy errors,
Pn.Thana added and minus a few marks of everyones paper
and yay,saya dapat A but its an 80.ngam ngam.
Its something not to be proud of but to be thankful.
Anyways,tadi kelakar kut when she was like marking
the OMR papers,
Pn Thana"WAH,Aqmal Fahmi dpt 34 utk kertas satu,
bagusnya kamu,not bad ah".
Aqmal "hah? apa ye ke,seriously?"
PnThana "Eh betul ke,eh apa ni salah kertas la
ni kertas apa ni ?"
haaha the whole class was like haaaaaaah.
cause like there is no freaking way anyone
could have scored that good fr bm.

OWH,
kem is this friday :D
well Ali,Fana,Aidil,Mimi,Amira,Aini is on board.
yeah,we're going.satu geng.baru la kem.
too bad Ain's mom wouldnt let her go.
Owh terlupa Anis is going also.
and she and Diana is like wanting to be
in the MySchoolRock thing,its a maybe
but entahlah.

Agama paper!
sedihnya.teruk gila.
im just hoping its a B.
and yeah congrats to the 3Is yg dpt A.

PANDUPUTERI,
today was kinda fun actually.
had lots of crazy laughs.

well until here then,
byebye.

gravity,

2010-06-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

well,hello there.

Finally got test results back.
Bm crushed my desires of getting straight A's.
Though it was a 79.I feel quite disappointed cause
its like one mark away from an A but my paper 1 and
like the whole class punya paper 1 was like sht!
teruk gila.no one got even more than half right.

thank you,Tengku Aiman,
if it wasn't fr him i wouldn't have notice that
my sej omr paper was wrongly checked and i got like a
54 out of 60 questions.That was like so melegakan
cause after doing the test,i felt like tonnes of regret
fr nt reading the questions properly.

owh,
agama punya paper right,
ustazah said everyone in the entire form3
got like really low marks.
seriously terkejut when she said that.
thinking of this is so frustrating.
geo lagi la.wht would be of my marks.

schools coming back,

2010-06-18T16:30:00.002+08:00

once upon a time,

finally back frm srwk.
funny story,my mom thought we were suppose
to go back on tuesday.so,we were all packed and ready
to go.but,the ticket was fr like the next day.
we were like WHAT?!?!!?,so our cousin picked us up
and went straight to the mall to watch a movie.
dad was like here is a 100 and spent it as a
"we're sorry cause wrongly saw the date or actually didnt
even bother looking at the date till we were a day early to
the airport".

it was cool and all cause we watched Prince of Persia that day.
sumpah best.everyone died like once.i was like holding back
tears when ppl died.hahahaa hilarious.

Anyways,
the reason we went back was bcause my cousin was getting
married.there goes another one.i really wasn't there at their
wedding thing cause my parents and i were like on a road trip
and we were kinda late.

My decision?

my mom said that end of this year i could go to aus.
then,after she bought the ticket she was like,ummm
i forgot to ask you if you wanted a new phone or something
or go to aus.since i bought pergi aus je la.
so much fr i wanted something.
but i still could harass my dad fr something.

so random,

2010-06-10T02:33:00.002+08:00

hello,hello

why,
why oh,why do i feel like
i want to beat the crap out of ppl.
and suddenly i just feel so mad
and frustrated.*sigh*this is pathetic.

anyways,
flying to kuching this afternoon,
i dnt think i would sleep tonight.
i totally love late night snacks and
watching stpd cartoons.

well ok then,
byebye.

people never want what they have,

2010-06-08T12:31:00.003+08:00

people,
yes,we are ungrateful.
its a fact that most of the time,
we only want what other people have but
never take a second to see what we already own.

Anyways,
i got a fever again *yay*,
i thought of nt telling my mom
but well how can you ignore someone
who sounds like a dying cow and sneezes
every 10 seconds.

Owh,
kesian my lil brother cause well
his latest exam results,well they weren't pleasant.
so now everyday he has to study,haha sedih gila.
but,,,,my exam results pun entahla
i might cry if i see them.
who cares what ppl think,if the results suck
ill cry by the corner in class.

i want to go out,
so badly but im sick and tired,
and dah pokai haha,
and theres like no one around.
whatevs.

travel craze,
i want to travel!
one day i wanna go around the world,
how awesome is that.
that has been like a life-long dream
since like forever but im like 15
and the dream has to wait.
cause i have to own like billions of money first,
and have a good-education,
and stuff like that.
reality has no sense of imagination.

well ok then,
byebye.

can i get a,

2010-06-06T22:57:00.002+08:00

hey,hey,hey

finally boleh online,
my brother ni bermasalah.
he cant live in this house without
interacting with "friends".LOSER.

Anyways,
cant wait to balik kuching this thursday,
but i really wnt to go to ou with
everyone else just to hangout.
haih,i miss those 3Jujur asses.haha.

Meaningfull,
urmm i feel super lame,
cause sara's like doing art&craft n stjohn stuff
and other ppl pun mcm so talented n creative
n living life to the fullest,
heck,what am i doing?

well ok then bye,bye.

2010-06-03T23:32:00.002+08:00

hallo.hallo,

exams.
oh well,there is always a next time.
i feel super scared fr all th papers.
my papers are screwed.
honestly,i kinda hate those yg tiru in my class.
Like seriously,terkejut kut sbb most of them
are like really smart like really really smart but why
on earth would you cheat.its just a schl test.
come on guys,thats really LAME.

Anyways,
holllidays!
2 weeks je -____-
haha i just wish i have time to hangout.
thats all i want.

well,okay
byebye.

said too much,

2010-05-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

hello.hello.

finally,can online.
my brthr is back and he hogs the computer.
and i could finally say;

LEE Dewyze wins,yay!

Anywys,
mid-exams is on monday,
and i am terrified to say that i only
have studied a tiny tiny bit.
doomed.doomed i tell you.

Last night,
i was like playing with my perfume,
and spraying it saje2 then my lilbrother
was like ,urh i think ada bug on your shirt,
haha i was like shouting and jumping out of a sudden,
then he was like nt that shirt the one in ur closet la.
haih,scared the crap out of me.

ok then byebye,
wish me luck fr my exams :)

u make me laugh,

2010-05-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes you gotta let go?

haih,im exhausted.always traveling.
frm my house to kj and then back home again.
somehow today moody gila and i could feel a fever kicking in soon.
its so depressing since exams just around the corner.

Anyways,
enough with the gloomy stuff.
i cant draw a fish -_-
haha fr seni and my fish looks like an aaalien.
whoa,this is so lame.fish.

today,
school was okay i guess.
kesian,mimi she hasn't been feeling well since last week.
everyone is totally bising about the class t-shirt.
the dinosaur design on the shirt is so cute but lack originality ofcourse.
mcm baju form 5 apa entah la,so its kinda lame.whatevs.
haha,walking back and this guy was like lala,looking at me,
with some squirrel voice,sumpah kelakar.

oh well,bye bye.

lame,lame,lame.

2010-05-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

say what ?
Shahir menang af,ermmm whatevs.
Adira should have won.
Mom says Shahir cant sing and i honestly agree.
My mom and I we are so like twins,haha.
we were like watching Iwan singing,
we were like ish knp dia ptg rmbt,his helmet hair was super cute.
then,we were both thinking eh why didnt they bring tam spider as
iwan was like singing rela ku pujuk;an awesome song btw.
and tiba2 muncul.Then we were like maybe they shouldnt,curi spotlightla.
haha then the kamera zoomed at his face,
i was abt to say eeee comel gila muka iwan,
but mom said it first with the same exact words.
it freaks me out in a kind of way.

owh,
yesterday was chatting with Al-Alfi,
long time friend from sklh rendah and urh
alfi is so different.he use to be that cute,shy,innocent guy
anddd now he is like flirty,outgoing and smooth talking.
At first i was like,hey alfi is pretty cool
well till he said he was girlsbrastrappuller,
wtfish.seriously,him.mengejutkan.
i wonder has like everyone change since way back then.

Exams,
its so close,AAAAH!

Hehe,
i saw Syedtallguitarplayerwholivesinmyneighbourhood today,haha.
well,one of the music teachers car kena langgar and chaos gila outside of class.
So everyone was like outside.
I cnt deny that he is kinda cute,haha.
but whatevs.

well ok then,
bye bye.

the usuals,

2010-05-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

They got nothing on you,baby.

Haha Weslie and Zul has gone to highest level of sickness.
They completely ruin all of the greatest songs with words that
just make you want to shiver of the grossness.
Aini and I were like covering our ears because of them.
Ayat semua tak tau sensor.Haih.
3J is so full of asses.Haha.
i love them and i cnt stop saying this.

Anyways,
t-shirt class is like entahlah,
i dnt knw wht those ppl want.

Exams?
i wish it was over.its so tyring just waiting fr it.
everyone is like super nervous but we all dnt have the
mood to study.im terrified.

owh and,
i hope Lee Dewyze wins!

okay then,bye bye.

urh,

2010-05-18T23:35:00.003+08:00

Halo,halo
heeheee kelaaakar.
haha whats so funny,idntevenknow.

Anyways,
i cant nt love 3JUJUR !
THEY ARE FREAKING HILARIOUS.
i just wish this moment would never end.

haha Bm was like,
*shit*shit* salah buat alamat fr surat krmn rasmi,
well yeah haha that was what Ali n i thought so we laugh our asses
off,luckily cikgu tak perasan cause our alamats were like so crappy
but atleast cikgu said it was alright...but
AMIRA,urrh? i wonder why she is so mad at Ali.
Somehow something went wrong.

owh and Agama was like,
everyone was like a mentor and had a protege fr hafazan,
so i was teaching Zabilah and Akmar lepak la sblh us,
so Zabilah was like main pakai hentam je on almost every ayat,
and at first i was serious then akmar giggled,well i just couldnt
help it we started laughing like crazy.
i mean we didnt meant to be mean but the way she read it was like
urhh,hahahahhaha.

till here,bye bye.

lame,

2010-05-15T01:54:00.002+08:00

Lee Dewyze,
heeee i hope he wins.

Teachers day,
well it sucked.every year teachers day is bloodyboring.
choir hancur gila cause jean didnt play so we didnt rehearse
with the song so well,we were much better off without the music.
hip hop pun agak off gila.most of them mcm nak jatuh je.
rehearsal was much much better.
The form2s perform tak best sangat but atleast they were brave.

Brothers Bloom,
sedih gila kut.
its a story abt two bros who are cons.
and well finally the elder bro died but he told his younger bro
that it was just another scam and he would see him later.
Then after a while he woke up and realise that the blood from
his elder brother that was on his shirt was real.
Well meaning to say,his brother is gonna die or died.
Damn,menangis-nangis tengok .

Mid-exams is up,
and i havent study much.
everything is so screwed up.

Oh well,byebye.

hehe,

2010-05-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

IU day , are you there,are you dead?

IU was kinda awesome but Ali tak dtg :(
It was like a last minute thing,on the way dah nak sampai,
texting "Ali,u dah sampai?",
and waited and waited and waited,
my phone vibrated and came out a text sayin
"laila,my mom tak bg ponteng tuition since iuday starts at 10".
seriously,i wanted to cry.
mmg GGB :(

Anyways,
i think the staring performence was like borrrringgg,sorry.
well,except Jason's dance la.that was super coolio.
Haha i think the best was like Hani's and the hip hop la.
Other than that i tak sempat tgk cause i had to go back at 1.
I totally hate the sriamanians that was screaming like hell.
We were like "urhh,korg sakit ke?"
like seriously tak pasal2 jerit like crazy.

heeeeeee,
baru balik ou cause i wanted to buy a new schlbag.
I wanted this reebok bag which was green like my current one,
but dad said its too expensive and quality like crap
so tak jadi.Then,we found like this bodyglove and
i wanted a different one but it was super expensive jugak
so i took a bag wth a compromising deal stamp on it.
haha,
saw meor,imran,rafiq,isk and haris jugak.
memang kaki ou betul.
Meor was like the first one to notice me and he was surprisingly friendly.
Imran called me sombong.Harhhh whatevs,Imran.

byebye.

i have no voice,

2010-05-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

Haha kelakar!
I was like watching this video about
soldiers like remaking Telephone yg LadyGaga
punya tu.Haha this made my day.
Ada one dude gerak haha sumpah kelakar gila :D

Anyways,
sepatutnya i should be doing like
this quiz about bantuankemanusiaan fr Pandu
activities and well i dnt really want to do it but
i have to and it has been half an hour since i've open
my pc and all i have been doing is blogging and watching
funny videos.Screw it.
Im ditching PP next year.

Oh well goodbye :)

Ermmm,

2010-04-30T23:23:00.002+08:00

If only,
i miss my ~~gay~~ happy friends.
somehow today we were all quite.
The strain between us grew larger as days past by.
I want to cry,im hating this.
This would be the last time any of us might be with each other.
And everything feels like its falling apart.
Wish we all knew whats gonna happen.
Well,i still love them.

Heroes,
hrhh nak menangis tengok,
fck im a mess :P

Anyways,
today,semua org stress.
KGT.hrhhhh.nasib baik siap.
Kesian Amira she was like so stress out
about KGT and TMR n V.
CHAOS.I dnt get it?
Ali pun stress.
We are all emotionally unstabled.
Haha,masa agama kelakar la.
bdk 3H like lepak la cause ustazah wasnt in class.
Jazril was like,
eh,muka Laila dgn Zul sama.
Haha,like WTFish?
haha i said "kembar terpisah"
haha,seriously,muka pun tak sama.
Zul wears spects now cause,haha
he shaved his eyebrows.
haha hilariously funny.

who knew,
Jazril has a house near mine.
eeeep,scary haha.

Haih,
i wonder if tmrw ada guitar clss since it is labours day.
still,im nt going but hmmmm tak dpt jumpa that TallGuyyy.
haha,whatevs.
Owh,
Sara!
i knw,we knw,kami nampak kamu dgn dia.
sah,sah bukan kawan ;P

Down,down,down,

2010-04-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hola,
today was well ermm average?
i think Amira made our day.
She went like cuckooo almost the whole day la.
Without her boring gila.

Owh,btw
everyone is like hoping Aqmal botakkan his head
cause awal tahun he said if Jerai wins this year his
head is like gonna be licin haha so we hope he keeps
to his promise.
Many tak dtg today so class was like kinda sunyi.

Choir,
heeeee nyanyi lagu we are the world fr hari guru "kut".
entahla kejap lagu down la then entah apa la
but tadi everyone sang Baby,Justin Biebers song like crazy.
Then ada pulak yg shuffle kt belakang tuh -___________-
Hmmm,Amira mcm ada scandal butttt like mcm tak
so entah but she said like aku penat mengharap.
AND,i couldnt have agree more.
Its so tyring and its better if u just did not care.

The little things,

2010-04-25T14:30:00.002+08:00

Nobody said it was easy,
sports day chaotic gila.
harrhh,luckily i gave the report tak macam org gila.
i was like practicing infront Ali and Fana,i couldn't help
laughing and smiling like crazy infront of them.So, i was
super nervous imagining that i was laughing while i say
the report.

Anyways,
its good to knw that sports day sudah tiada.
finally could focus on other things but ill totally
miss practicing for kawad.
I would miss being with my gang all the time the most.

Sports Day,
best gila :D
no one could ruin that day for me.it was awesome.
though,kesian polis tak menang fr kawad.
I wanted to cry fr them.Kesian them,practice like crazy.
PBSM yg menang :O shocking gila kut.
hmmmm,our school kinda loss against other schls yg dtg :(
Especially against SMKKJ,pelari dia like super laju.
Baby,
haha JustinBiebers song playing was like the best.
Everyone was singing like crazy.Semua layan je,haha.
Too bad ChockMingWah takde.He would sing that song
like everyday in class.
The weather wasn't so hot but we all still got super dark,haiyaaaah.

Guitar class,
hrhhhh thankfully i didnt suck that bad.
Haha,that tall guy yg naik motor tu who plays the guitar was there.
His name is SYED.FYI,i was nt stalking anyone.
His class is after mine so,teacher was like haaa syed .
Anyways,i baru tahu that he actually lives in my neighbourhood.
Just kena ~~stalk~~ research rumah dia kt mana haha.
Haha,pfffft.Maybe boleh tumpang je haha.
But this guy is like super taaalll or maybe ollddddd sangat so whatever la.

random,

2010-04-20T21:49:00.002+08:00

well i was just watching the biggest loser,
and they were like climbing up the craziest hill,
then there was like the last guy,
and he like could barely make it up and
others was like helping him and
i seriously mcm tak tahan nak menangis,
like kesian and you would go like aaawwww D:

Shit day,

2010-04-20T21:19:00.002+08:00

today is officially shit day.SHIT day.
haaaaaaaaaaah,today kinda sucked.

Perbarissaaaaan,
this made the day all shitty and frustrating.
Juniors,mengada-ada tak nak masuk and
well pandu puteri tak cukup org.
I turun je padang,looking that tak cukup,
i could have cried but mcm tahan gila2 and
atleast tak turun.
Dah la masa kawad macam apa je,
nasib baik tak teruk sangat.
Then,because of camp ada like half yg tak tau sangat formation,
so tak buat langsung formasi tuh.
Andddd thursday is like the next raptai andd were fcking doomed.
Why can't we ever get a break?
thinking of perbarisan makes me want to cry
right now and i totally lost my mood to do kerja kursus.

Anis,
kesian anis.she was like crying cause ramai gila
nak quit QM.harrh,drama gila2.

Owh,
again about the kawad,
POLIS u got my vote.
haha lawa kut their formation.terpesona,haha.
urhhh krs mcm sama je mcm last year.
st johns,urm entahlah tak dpt tgk la pulak.
haha pengakap cool gila,irfan panjat that kayu thing.

well ok byebye.